Hiding from the "AIDS at 30? media storm
June 14th, 2011 - I shuttered myself from most of the hoopla surrounding the "AIDS at 30" milestone
(we seem to have agreed on June 5, 1981, when an item in the Morbidity
and Mortality Weekly Report reported deaths among gay men). The trauma of those early years is tough for me to revisit. Every media piece seemed to be about the past
and it all felt emotionally overwrought and indulgent. I skimmed the coverage and secretly wished it would just go away.
Revealing the intensely personal isn't normally a problem for me; I wasn't shy about addressing our darkest days in my video blog
entry Once, When We Were Heroes (right), so it's not like
I can't go there. Maybe the sheer volume this month of tragic stories and heartfelt blogs and "I Was There" interviews was too much for my scarred psyche.
It could also be an ego thing. All these extra voices showing up and piling on their stories. Hey Missy, that's my gig, move it along, thank you very much. During
the media frenzy of "AIDS at 30? I felt like a professional drag queen refusing to venture out on Halloween. Too much competition. And from such amateurs.
This week I finally paid more attention to what has been written this month, and of course, it's pretty damn good.
The 30th (what? Celebration? Anniversary? Commemoration? Did we decide on something?) yielded some tremendous coverage at The Body , my
favorite online HIV resource. And obviously, how the hell can people appreciate our AIDS history is we don't document it at every opportunity?
Asking the gay bloggers at The Body to speak back and forth between generations about their HIV/AIDS experience was inspired. Anyone under 35 is my favorite audience,
although the over-40 crowd probably understand me a lot better.
I also really enjoyed Nelson Vergel's interview with Dr. Michael Gottlieb (left), the man who published the first
report of some rather strange deaths among gay men. Dr. Gottlieb also happened to be my physician in Los Angeles when I was diagnosed with HIV in 1985. During those days, I once forced Dr. Gottlieb to tell me his best guess for my lifespan, and he went
out on a limb to say I could make it to 40. That birthday came and went, ten years ago. When the preeminent expert in the field gets it that wrong, you know we've had more success treating this virus than anyone had hoped in the early days. Thank God.
Elsewhere, I admired Regan Hofmann's (right) recent editorial at Poz Magazine immensely. With nary a glance backward, she sat squarely in the present and outlined the thirty issues that are most important to the crisis today
and in the future. It was also a solid primer on the emergence (and debates about) new prevention theories like Post-exposure and pre-exposure prophylaxis and " test and treat ."
Once I allowed myself to "face the past" by checking out Karen Ocamb 's amazing reports from the early days of the crisis, I was happy I did. Karen is a Frontiers news editor who has been covering LGBT
issues in Los Angeles for 30 years, and in her collection of stories from the AIDS frontlines of the 1980's (complete with video she shot herself), she takes us along to an early AIDS protest (left), to
early treatment activism meetings and to the unfolding of the AIDS quilt . Karen's close relationship with history and her "home movies" give the stories amazing intimacy. I recommend the series highly.
The media rush of tragedy and inspiration known as "AIDS at 30" is dying down. As much as I want coverage of HIV and for there to be constant prevention messages, I'm a little relieved. I can comfortably go back to debating our current treatments and campaigns, sharing sweet and funny stories about my life with HIV, and wondering why the hell the media doesn't pay more attention to HIV/AIDS.
We all have our coping mechanisms. Allow me a little healthy denial.
As always, my friends, please be well.
"Reproduced with permission - My Fabulous Disease"
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